My baby turns 4 tomorrow!

I feel behind because I haven't updated my blog in several days... I've been busy bc my big brother was visiting from TX since Sunday - he just left today. :( My baby turns 4 tomorrow. Wow! Of course I'm overjoyed and very grateful for every second we've had with this angel - she is truly the best thing that ever happened to me! She's been asking every day for over a month: "Is tomorrow my birthday?" Today I could finally say YES! :) I can't believe 4 years ago I hadn't even met her yet. My life was so about to turn around!!! :) I'm sure I'm overreacting but I feel her slipping away - growing up - so quickly already! I know I'll blink and she'll be packing for college. What will I do? I pray that I'm blessed to see that day - and absorb it. I really wish she had a little sibling for so many reasons. The main one being that I don't want her to be alone - especially if I have Alzheimers. It was so nice to have my brother here - especially when it came to my mom. I can't explain what it was like knowing he wanted to visit her too - that he was feeling the situation like I was - that he could share my world for a little while. He was awesome. He's a good brother and son - and uncle! Jasmine loves having her uncle Razzy here - she wanted him to stay for "5 weeks!" I'll share more about his time here with me and my mom later - just need to get some of it out there. I'm sad to think of visiting my mom by myself again. I know I'll be fine, its just so cool to share the experience with someone else. This really has been a lonely experience. Reggie is very kind but he's also very busy. He has so much going on with his parents too. He really has a lot on his plate now too. Life goes on...