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I feel behind because I haven't updated my blog in several days... I've been busy bc my big brother was visiting from TX since Sunday - he just left today. :( My baby turns 4 tomorrow. Wow! Of course I'm overjoyed and very grateful for every second we've had with this angel - she is truly the best thing that ever happened to me! She's been asking every day for over a month: "Is tomorrow my birthday?" Today I could finally say YES! :) I can't believe 4 years ago I hadn't even met her yet. My life was so about to turn around!!!

Jaz is so sweet. We visited my mom Wednesday and today and she is just so lovely! She always says she doesn't want to go but as she walks in and is greeted with a lots of "she's so beautiful"s or "she is so precious" she warms up pretty fast. I don't know what I'd do without her. Mami remains her smiley amazing self. I was talking to my twin brother tonight and as I was speaking I realized that as much as my mom constant smiles confuse me, they also give me a tremendous amount of peace. It is by God's grace that my mom is no longer affected by this world.

Jazzy made me breakfast today!!  I had Cheerios w/bananas, toast, blueberry yogurt and orange juice - she should make my breakfast everyday!  SO CUTE.!!  She and daddy gave me cards, flowers and gifts made by my angel - we had dinner later too. I am so very blessed. 

Yesterday (Friday) I decided to take Mami out with me for a while.  I got excited at the thought that I could actually take her to TARGET with me!!  However, toileting issues on my arrival made it clear that we wouldn't have time for this as I had to be back to pick up Jaz from school by 12:30.  Mom walks so slow and we would have been visiting the huge Target.  I decided to scope out the neighborhood with her instead.  I sat her in the backseat from the beginning this time bc I thought it best to skip the struggle with the right-side car door entry - she got right in.

"Mamistad" entry (my first one) and then  on the comments to see my next 3 entries!  Instead of clicking on "Post new Comment" I was hitting "Reply".  :(
Bummer...these were good ones.  :)
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A trip to the doctor and taking care of other stuff kept me from stopping by my mom's today.  I called twice though and they're really starting to know me and have their reports ready when I call - that's good.  I missed her today.  I'll visit her tomorrow and take her roommate the sugar she requested.  We'll call her Senora C - she is from Cuba and she's 101.  She reminds me of this every time I see her by asking (en Espanol of course): "How old do you think I am?"  I guess 86 every time and she says: "No, you're way too low...I'm 101!"  Very cute.  She

Yesterday our plans to take my mom to lunch were changed bc Jaz didn't feel well - she had a tummy ache so she stayed home with daddy as I headed out (disappointed)  by myself.  This time I found mom sitting in a chair in her room with the alarm device clamped to her sleeve.  :(  This thing is like the emergency clip on the treadmill that stops the treadmill when its pulled out.  This thing sounds an ear piercing alarm to let nurses know that a patient who wanders is up and about without supervision.  It made me sad to think how many times she has to have this thi

...since my mom moved in to the nursing home that I haven't been to visit her.  Jaz had a birthday party early then we spent tine with Reggie's parents.  By the time we left it was already 4PM and I really wanted to have some family time together.  Reggie leaves again tomorrow for another week - he was gone all last week. 

This is my first entry.  Inspired to start a blog (again) by my precious friend (G), I'll start by saying that I feel like a dam that's holding back a million thoughts, prayers, wishes and tears that have built up over the last 12 years or so, since someone decided to open my diary to the public.  I was disgusted, hurt and sad.  I felt like someone had been peeping through my window - robbing me of my private thoughts, hopes and dreams and then sharing them with others around the water cooler.  I'm finally admitting that my spirit was crushed in a way I never realized until

thisi is my fiest try at a blog entry